Oznaka: my post

That feel when you’re so horny you can’t stop looking at pictures of delectable arms of one Mads Mikkelsen/when looking at gifs of Mads(’ arms) makes you horny (idk which one it is really) and so in a moment of pure genius inspiration strikes, and you find yourself writing Hannigram fic where Will spends his days obsessing over Hannibal’s strong and skiled hands. I’m feeling that very strongly now

I’ve been feeling that for the past two days whoops

Periods are fun, yay, and hormones too! (Note the sarcasm) I’m just happy I had no cramps today 🙃

On a serious note: I’m glad I’m feeling like writing again, that happens so rarely these days.

My god, White Collar Season 4 Episode 10 has all the feels. It’s almost like they had a big fight and then Peter decided to smother Neal in somuchhomo – jk – justplatonicfriends truths about their partnership relationship to get back to being best bros ever and I live for it.

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Peter: “That’s the Neal Caffrey I know and love.”

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Neal: “Why did you take my deal?”

Peter: “I told you. Your expertise.”

Neal: “That’s all?

Peter: "I realised, all those crimes you were commiting, they were never about money, or greed.”

Neal: “What do you think they were about.”

Peter: “The challenge. That’s what we have in common. I love the challenge.”

Neal: “I know you do.”

Peter: “And after all those years of chasing you, your cryptic clues, your late night phone calls from international numbers-”

Neal: “Yeah and all the cookies and birthday cards.”

Peter: “Yeah. I realised I liked you. (pause) That’s why I took your deal.”

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Furlong: “Well I assume that there’s an immense trust between the two of you?”

Peter: “Usually. But even when there isn’t trust, there’s always faith. Faith, that whatever the other’s doing, it’s for a good reason.”

Neal: “As long as Peter has faith in me, I’ll have faith in him.”

And when Peter watches Neal get shot in the chest, lets out that anguished yell of “Neal!”, shoots one henchman straight in the head, and then proceeds to run to Neal’s side with no regard to Anderson still shooting at him whatsoever. My shipping heart.

I am currently rewatching White Collar, and I just finished Season 4 Episode 9 (“Gloves Off”). Neal and Peter’s talk near the end, when they talk about Peter going against Neal’s wishes and running Sam’s name, breaks my heart every time. The hurt in Neal’s eyes when he realises Peter still doesn’t trust him is so gut-wrenching and it makes me mad a little because Peter not trusting Neal is the root of most of their problems.

Tim and Matt’s performance throughout that scene though; that’s probably one of my favourite moments in the whole series.

I can’t talk to any of my friends right now. It’s just so toxic. They are judgemental and intolerant, and they know next to nothing about the situation. They dismiss my sadness like it’s nothing, they brush it all off as a joke. It’s moments like this which remind me that I, myself, am my own best friend.